the only life worth living is one that is truthful to yourself
“Confront the dark parts of yourself,
work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness.
Your willingness to wrestle with your demons
will cause your angels to sing.” (August Wilson)
a week before you broke up with me
you admitted your depression had reared up
making you withdrawn, distant
short-tempered and confused
you said you didn’t want to talk about it
because doing so made it real
as if you could make a chemical imbalance
cease to exist
simply by ignoring it
the weakest thing in the world is pretending.
the truth will set you free
you said we werent on the same page and you were right
why would anyone want to be as miserable as you?
weird that you go after women
full of joy and life
you once called yourself a black hole
that might be the truest thing you ever said
you once said
“i’ve never felt this way about anyone before.
every other time i was in a relationship
it was just kinda like ‘ehhh i guess i’ll do this.’”
which at the time i thought was sweet
but is actually so incredibly shitty
how could you be so cavalier about other people’s feelings?
why would you do that to them?
or was that just
one of the lies you tell yourself
will you say that about me too?
you once said you were attracted to strong women
is that because we’re more fun to break?
I was sitting upright on the examination table, waiting
for that special team they call in for cases like mine
when a janitor walked in to switch out the trash.
“How are you doing?” He said
“Alright” – the best I could manage
“Then why are you up there on that table?”
A wry smile and silence
“But you will be alright.”
I nodded, “Yeah, I will be.”
“But you’re not alright now, so why did you say you are?”
“I don’t know, people lie about that all the time.
You ask how they are and they just smile and say they’re fine.”
“Yeah, that’s true,” he said, his tired eyes locked on mine,
“But there’s a time and a place for everything,
and you don’t have to say you’re alright right now.”
1) You are not just who you are when you are who you want to be – you are also who you are when you are who you do not want to be.
2) If you are rationalizing something, you’re about to make a bad decision. You don’t need to rationalize a good decision.
3) It is not weak to admit that you can’t handle something. It is weak to fail to learn from your mistakes and pretend that you can and continuously make the wrong decision.
4) Apathy is the biggest killer of man.
5) If we don’t fight for each other we will never all be free.
6) Gentle, appropriate pressure over time yields results.
Some truths from Rumi:
1) Set yourself on fire. Seek those who fan your flames.
2) If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?
3) Be empty of worrying, think of who created thought!
4) Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open?
You know, when we were little kids, we all wanted to save the world. Almost every little boy or girl envisions themselves in these grand scenarios where they get to save mankind from the villains. Where good triumphs over evil. But then we grow up, and the bad guys don’t look anything like the Joker, and the battles against evil don’t look anything like the epic, building-smashing, super-powered fights that our heroes always won. We grow up, and we grow to understand that the world is nothing like we imagined, but that it is indeed full of evil.
As adults, we become defeated, apathetic. What we don’t see is that nothing has changed. Why should we stop wanting to fight the evils of the world, why should we stop fighting for peace and justice, just because it isn’t as simple or as fun as sucker punching Dr. Octopus right in the face?
I believe in good. I believe in the good of humankind. And I know that apathy is the biggest killer of man. We can make the world a better place.